In the aftermath of having to shoot someone in self-defense especially if the attacker dies can be great. In all honesty it may be something you'll need to get counseling for. If you have trouble beyond your control seek professional advice. Most preachers are able to do help with this.
I will go over some of the emotions you may encounter that is normal but if they last too long get help.
- Elation- You feel happy or excited that you survived a life threatening encounter.
- Guilt- You feel guilty because you were happy about surviving the attack and the attacker didn't.
- Revulsion- You may feel revulsion even to the point of being nauseous, vomiting, even fainting.
- Remorse- You may feel remorse for hurting or killing the attacker.
- Self-Doubt- You may doubt the actions you took. You may start thinking you might could have done something differently to avoid hurting or killing someone.
- Rationalization- You start rationalizing why you did what you did.
- Acceptance- You finally come to the conclusion that what you did was right and justified.
These are some of the some of the emotions that you can have in the aftermath. Not everybody will have the same ones but most will have some. You could even get to the point of:
- Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD)- The consist of flashbacks, nightmares, and losing the ability to function normally. Not being able to hold jobs or maintain your normal life.
What can I do to help overcome some of these emotions?Self-Reinforcement- You are basically reinforcing the fact you're a good person. You will want to keep telling yourself:
- I am a good person
- I did not choose to attack someone
- I didn't attack anybody, I was attacked
- My attacker chose this path
- I was morally justified
- I have probably saved other peoples lives by stopping him
- I had no choice
- I am a moral person
I suggest saying these over and over as well as reading some passages in the Bible:
2.“If a thief is found breaking in and is struck so that he dies, there shall be no blood guilt for him, 3. But if the sun has risen on him, there shall be blood guilt for him, he shall surely pay. If he has nothing, then he shall be sold for his theft.
Rescue the weak and needy; deliver them from the hand of the wicked.
He (Jesus) said to them, “but now let the one who has a money bag take it, and likewise a knapsack. And let the one who has no sword sell his cloak and buy one”.
I suggest doing a deep study of them and other passages to help you in your aftermath journey to recovery to a normal life.
Don't let this deter you from protecting yourself, it is right to do so. Just be prepared to feel these emotions. Be prepared to seek help if they are too much or last too long.